DramaGirl332

I Jumped over a cliff and I lived to tell the tale. I never thought I would survive, I thought it would be over before it started. I would get a email, we made a mistake sorry or just you are fired. I walked on pins and needles the entire summer, but eventually I realize no mistake was made. This experience made me say, that I can do anything when I set my mind to it. Tech week was filled with tears and uncertainty but for once I did not fall back to my old vices. During Saturday, before I came back to reality I dialed his number and slowly realized he can't provide me  any help that I can't give my self. I wish his number was easy to

Prologue A teenage girl quickly skates across the ice and long toned legs stretches high into the air and her  right arm  reaches down towards the ice rubbing the ice that is embossed with the signature Olympic rings that span the entire rink. The girl stops skating suddenly and looks up towards the large impressive rink that is filled  with people. They are anxiously awaiting the conclusion of the ladies long program that will crown the ladies gold medalist. She quickly sucks in a deep breath and starts to skate towards the edge of the rink. She quickly laces her skates on the waiting area that surrounds the rink. She looks up quickly to s

Chapter two: “Tristan, I think we should talk about your choice.” A loud voice breaks through the tense silence hovering over the large scale room. Bright light fills the room and touches on a large granite table surrounded by eight chairs. Only one is occupied. A medium size circle is found in the middle of the granite filled with a misty liquid. A large white number eight fills the circle as a ever present reminder of quickness of the illusive time that flies past so quickly. A older man pulls walks away from the plain white wall. His coal black hair parted in the middle as it gently grazes the back  of his fair skinned neck.

Prologue A crippling pain suddenly radiates throughout my body, crawling through my veins like some relentless plague breaking through my dreams until I can almost feel the tears falling down my cheeks. My head is spinning violently, I am dizzy and my sight is hazy and dim as if I am completely overwhelmed by the effects of potent drunkenness. “ What happen?” The lingering question I try to process but the pain in my head is way to much. The coldness of night grazes my exposed arm as I try to remember why I left the window open.  I reach my  arms around trying to find some blankets to cover them. They are nowhere to be found th

Who I am Some people wonder who I am and sometimes I wonder the same thing. Some people wonder how I got into college. They tell me I don’t belong here. They tell me I have no talent and  that I am worthless and that I will not be successful in life. I am told I am a immature child and that I am not grown up. I am told that I tell lies and that I am not trustworthy. I am told that I am broken behind repair and that I wear my heart on my sleeve. I am told that I am dumb and that I am a moron. I feel like these people are lost behind a blanket of dark smoke. I wish I could let them see behind my mask, and let them see the person

It has taken me five years to realize that I love you. I wish I did not love you in this way. I wish I could see you as my brother only. I wish things had ended nicely. I wish my was not heart was not broken and that you were not stuck in a deep hole of despair. I wish I knew how to get you out, but sadly that is not one of the powers that I posses. I loved the way you could read my mind before I opened my mouth. I loved the way you would make my feel better about all my problems. You were the only boy my father ever liked and the first friend my cousins were not jealous of. You were the only boy that was allowed in my room alon

I never thought college would change me. I thought I would stay the same from orientation to graduation. When I got here, I realized not only was change inventible it was also very necessary. I lost my sanity and gained something that I could never have imagined. I realized the word is not black and white but filled with shades of gray. I questioned if I belong here and also in this world. I questioned my sexuality and who I real feelings for. I was betrayed and comforted by the most unlikeliest  people. I feel in love with a major that I can never pursue.   I developed an eating disorder that I am still struggling with it. I lost m

I never thought I would be that girl. Watching every pound in the mirror and every piece of food that went in to my mouth. I guess college was not what I expected and it took out its vengeance  on my body and mind. It is weird because I thought going to college would increase the control I had over my self. It turns out I had less control then I imagined . I still cringe when I look at pictures from the beginning of last year. My face looks thin and body look weak and frail. I felt like my life was spinning out of control and the only thing I could control was my food choice. Looking back I realized how much people were worried about m

I don’t know what I have done without you I feel like if I never came here and met you. I would be so different. You opened my eyes to a new world and showed me how wonderful it could be. You showed me that I was worthy of having friend and  that I was worth spending time with. You pushed me when I needed it and let me take things slow when I needed to. You never let me get away with things. You pushed me to answer the hard questions. You used to scare me and I was terrified of getting you mad. I tried everything to make you happy. I learned that you did not want me to make you happy. That was not my job. My only job was to be the

I wish I could go back in time and see you once more, I want one more day of true happiness before I let you go. I miss the way you knew me so well, I crave for the way you could calm me down with a single look or word. I want your perspective on my present and future. I want your brutal honesty and criticism. I had you for close to five years and cutting these ties are not easy. I still dream and wonder what is going on with you. My dreams range from ones about your funeral to ones about our wedding. I still consider you my best friend and get all flustered when people ask about you. I don’t know what to say, anymore then I k